January 2010
54 posts
fragments of today
-david would rather be blind than deaf, too —> i like david even more
-bottle rockets & parachute men = a typical sunday night out for shelby
-a beautiful surprise note from caroline in my mailbox
-a beautiful surprise inhaler from emily on my desk
-the idea of subject matter as spark, not driving force
-steel helvetica cookie cutters for clay
-going to take pictures of so many...
complete with astronaut noises
that’s one small step for sam, one giant leap for samkind.
“i always had a repulsive need to be something more than human.”
– david bowie
new in town - little boots
weekends are for:
-burning my throat with infinity cigarettes
-falling in love for just the night
-being the disaster or watching the disaster unfold
“i know, all beautiful places are prone to natural disaster, but being swallowed...”
– why?
some ponders
-we are so much of the same brain, it is unreal.
-that nature movie with the tiki man and the smoke jellyfish and the landfish and the running lizard and the intimate, cuddly seahorses and the comparison between rivers and embryonic veins was absolutely insane. and yet, oddly insightful. and possibly enlightening.
-four movies in one night, whoa.
-the crazy pounding outside the house was not...
delightful →
(via perko)
indeed.
your hand in mine - explosions in the sky
because...
3 of the last things that have inspired you 1. “fear of the inexplicable” by rainer maria rilke 2. lisa m. johnson’s work [ceramicist] 3. selflessness & forgiveness 3 things on your walls 1. abstract painting of a nude woman found in the garbage at the art building 2. scraps of notes and letters from close friends 3. old photographs of my parents
3 things that...
“candy is dandy, but liquor is quicker.”
– willy wonka
interior portrait
you don’t survive in me because of memories; nor are you mine because of a lovely longing’s strength. what does make you present is the ardent detour that a slow tenderness traces in my blood. i do not need to see you appear; being born sufficed for me to lose you a little less.
-rainer maria rilke
lately, everything feels thin.
like when we interlock our hands, and they don’t quite fit together- there’s gaps in the flesh. little crevices that everything runs through, and all we’re left with is the big picture.
and it’s heavy.
start a war - the national
“we expected...
how happy is the blameless vestal’s lot!
the world forgetting, by the world forgot-
eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
each pray’r accepted, and each wish resign’d.
thursday as friday, part one
-1/2 a bottle of white zin
-soft light of lamps & candles
-clove incense
-soul music
-looking up words i don’t know yet
-working on a wolf jigsaw puzzle
-only sharing my bed with books from now on
any takers?
“what’s the difference between a ferrari and a boner?
i don’t have a...”
– jamie rosen, over & over
Watchremedy - crookers [ft. miike snow]
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-feeling lighter
-sundays and tuesdays are the new fridays and saturdays
-three day weekends until may
-so much reading
-homework at the bar
-january feels right cold & white
-owning a mr. coffee —> all-access pass to coffee
today is the first day in about 4 months that i feel genuinely happy, and for no reason at that. i won’t elaborate any further on the goodness...
“there was a guy who interviewed me who said he felt that the character i play in...”
– maggie gyllenhaal
hero - regina spektor
“it’s all...
self help
i am working on:
being comfortable with the word ‘help’
[h…e…l…p… looks strange all spaced out like that, doesn’t it? awkward & wrong - just like it feels.]
not taking everything personally
[more or less, mastering the art of bullshitting myself.]
repairing relationships that i have unintentionally broken and neglected, even though i don’t...
an honest statement →
“she always starts with a simple image that once struck her. then she asks...”
– durga polashi, on andrea arnold
this is what i want →
who wants to be the clementine to my joel?
i want someone who will get me drunk to make the seduction part less repugnant, challenge my closed mouth nature, and lay on a frozen lake with me to look at constellations.
“i like the way you always manage to state the obvious with a sense of real...”
– gore vidal
heartbreaker - mstrkrft [ft. john legend]
resolutions revised
-listen to soul music louder
-quit soda
-grow braid out
-write back always
-resole / repair all footwear
-identify 5 new constellations in the sky
-find the perfect white tee [& buy in bulk]
-wear retainers every night
-become a regular
-learn how to dance [or - learn how to not care about not knowing how to dance, but still dance anyway]
-be radical
-take a photograph every day
...
“it was that kind of a crazy afternoon, terrifically cold, and no sun out or...”
– j.d. salinger, via ‘a catcher in the rye’